写在毕业前夕

终于，真的终于。
想象了快四年的这一天，终于等到了。
心情怎样？雀跃，欣喜，幸福，安乐--所有所有的我都感觉到了！
有很多很多想写的，但却有点缺词
谢谢父母，家人和朋友一直的关爱，忍耐，鼓励．．．真得谢谢！
学业的句点，只是成长过程中许多逗点里的一个，
感恩其中的一切。
开心，真得开心。

Friday 13th

It's a very special day indeed. One that mark the end of sleepless nights and most importantly, the perfect closure to the past 3 years and 9 months worth of effort.

If I could freeze time and keep it in a jar, I would definitely preserve a few hours from today...to remind myself of abundant blessings and love, as well as perseverance and patience. It wasn't easy and no, I didnt expect it to be. But was it worth the torment? I guess it was.

'You did very well!' and that itself wiped away all the tears, instantaneously!

I don't want to doubt the sincerity in the compliments, because they did make me feel very good, and I havent felt so in a long time. I know I could have done better. but it's ok, it's all over now :)

If I would to write about the whole journey that's led to this day, it'd probably take me a long time...but I think I should try someday, after it's all official.

God is good. He's especially good when the days are gloomy and there seems to be no way out...

and today, He's given me not one but two gifts that I would treasure for life.

Indeed, it's a once-in-a-lifetime experience and I'm glad I had the chance :)

Praise be to God and God only.

p/s: Friday the 13th is a black Friday and who says black's bad?? ;)

心情

20110314--我爱你一生一世

浪漫吗？见仁见智吧！

没关系，那不是重点。　

一个月一篇文，少得可怜。　

今天不知道为什么想写写．．．当下心情。

日本地震海啸过了７２小时，电视上不断地播放当地的情况．．．

看了真的很难过。　

突然觉得人真的很渺小，我们可以做的也真的很少．．．

每每天灾让我对生命的态度一点点改变，对很多事情瞬间改观．．．

希望还没太迟吧！

只能说要珍惜！感恩！

追了一年的真人秀，爱上了别人的爱情，现在要结束了．．．

有点沮丧，有点可惜，有点不能释怀。

然后又想想，怎么会那么投入在从一开始就知道是假想的节目呢．．．？

可能是我那压抑的天真浪漫想要放肆一下下．．．？

只能说有时候现实是残酷的。

２０１１年快过了四分一，还真觉得快的可怕！

有很多很多想做的，但也还有很多很多还未完成的．．．

也因为这样每天都过的紧凑，充实。

压力没有间断过，但其中的满足感也不少，

我想，这就是所谓的生活吧！

活着不是理所当然的。

So it's done.

So it's done and dusted.
I thought I'd be ecstatic but no,
more of a relief, more of a long sighhhhhh
one that let all pressure off my shoulders!
I could breath again!
I can't believe it.
I've imagined this day if not a thousand times, probably a hundred.
Although it's not entirely the end of everything,
and the next hurdle will probably be as stressful (if not more!)
I'm just glad I survived so far!
It was not easy, it was depressing.
I didnt see an end until...last night?
It has been a LONG journey...
The past month was the worst
(or maybe only then I realised how bad it was!)
I was exhausted.
I was nervous.
I was afraid.
I was everything but nothing positive.
It may not be a work of blood and sweat, but I assure you there were buckets of tears!
I'm glad tears come easily... because without, I might have just lost it.
I know I'm blessed, I know even better now.
It is difficult but it is possible.
I might have missed all sorts... I'm sure I gain too.
I'm glad it's done. I'm more than glad.
I just need time to let it settle... before it feels real.
I thank God.

一年之首

一年的头一日，我什么都没做，懒洋洋地耗了一天...

只想在这一天变成昨天之前，在这留下一点什么给自己。

过去的一年，很多做得不够，做得不好，只能努力地在新的一年补上！

前面三百多个日子，有很多的看不见，但也有满满的期待！

不管今天是多么的平凡，明天还是一样的新鲜！

完成未完成的，继续要继续的，开始将开始的...

就这样翻阅2011年吧！

新年快乐

Rewind 2010, 2011 Start

I've said this a hundred times, but I've to say it again...I can't believe it's the last day of 2010! (it's already 2011 back home as I'm saying this...so I know it's inevitable)

Let's do this the easiest way, chronologically:

January 2010

• Spent almost the whole month finishing up last bits of work to be submitted for publication before heading home!

February 2010

• 幸福二月，在家过了农历新年 :)

March 2010

• Left home (again...) to come back to more work! As far as I remember, it was a stressful month...

April 2010

• One of my best friends (yes I have more than one BEST friend ;p) traveled all the way from NZ to see me! It was the best Easter present! I didnt know I could get so nervous waiting to see a friend at the airport after not seeing each other for years...imagine if it was a lover! I'm glad we managed to pick up from wherever we left and the familiarity was just natural...

May 2010

• hmmm...to be honest, I can't remember much of this month. Probably just the very good weather (for once!) and the never-ending work...

June 2010

• Invited to watch 'Trooping the Colour' by the cousin, and saw Prince Philip for the first time (may well be the only time). Men in uniforms were stunningly attractive after all :)
• Visited London Zoo and for once, London seemed considerable to live in...

July 2010

• It should be July when I had those BBQs in the park and the Saturday afternoons sitting in the sun...or was it June?
• Again, one of those less significant months overwhelmed by work and the month was gone before I even realised!

August & September 2010

• Busy first half to make up for the rest of the days of leisure. Parents' visit! woots!
• Never expected them to come before the graduation, but thank God they did! It was definitely a boost of energy to help me get through the following months...
• Revisited Brussels, Amsterdam and Paris.
• Visited St Andrews for the first time and had a surprise!
• Had the award winning Anstruther fish and chips and it was REALLY good!
• Lotsa pampering and TLC from the parents!
• Granted my first publication :))
  

October 2010

• Tough time getting my head down on work and work ONLY!

November 2010

• First trip to the US and was not too impressed
  
• Crossed the border to Mexico and thought it's the most courageous thing I ever did!
• I turned 27 and celebrated it alone (without a cake) at the beautiful Coronado beach.
• Snow came early in full force! Coldest winter in 40 years =(

December 2010

• Birthday surprise came 2 weeks late but it was nonetheless great!
• Every weekend was packed with food, chats and mahjong! ;p
• Couldnt help but to get into the celebrative mood (and still tried VERY hard to keep the work going...)
• First ever proper Christmas dinner with a fireplace, turkey, sprouts, Christmas pudding and everything else that you have for Christmas! Thanks to my colleague and her family :)
• Secret Santa gave me a vintage muffin kit and I went into a muffin frenzy since!
  
• Very spontaneous with dinner/shopping plans nowadays...less organised in other words ;p

Only at this time of the year, I realise how much has happened in the past 365 days, some were less significant than others, some just stuck out like a sore thumb! Whether or not new year resolutions were made in the beginning of the year, I think the more important thing is to look back and still manage a smile!

I remind myself to count my blessings, each and every day. I thank God that I am healthy and well, despite the ups and downs and all that in between! My memory may fail me as the days pass, but my faith never.

Now let the New Year begins with a grateful heart and a sky high spirit!

Cheers to family, friends, good health and everything great!

Happy 2011 :)

'tis the season to be jolly!

Hark the heralds angels sing! Glory to the new born King!

It's a day to remember how blessed we are, or I am. I spent the day with friends as well as ample time with myself. Snuggling in bed with my new 'pet' and watched 'Eat Pray Love'. I quietly made a pact with myself while watching the film, which I hope to keep up to for as long as I could and not give up! Yup, my little Christmas wish :)

Suddenly the dust from yesterday seems to settle.
At peace, that's how I feel and what Christmas promises.
Peace at heart.

Life may be chaotic at times, may be suffocating at others, but not ALL the time. At least I have my family, friends, a roof on top of my head, food on the table, clothes to keep me warm and so much of everything else! Yes, life is indeed good. I reassure myself once again.

My best wishes to you and your loved ones.
May the blessings from above reach everyone of you!